When the Little Man is tired or needs comfort he puts his hands over one of our eyes and rubs an eyebrow. People are very entertained and intrigued by the behavior. I find myself having to explain it to people that haven't seen him do it before. Those that know just smile and say, "Oh! Someone's tired!"
The Fly and I laugh about it. Sometimes we get a little annoyed if I'm totally honest. When he's really tired he will double fist it. Then a person can't see where they are going. It can get dangerous.
The Fly caught the moment above. We had been hoping to get a good picture eventually. This one is slightly over exposed because I had the settings set to take pictures in a different direction. (I only know what I am talking about in that last sentence because of the beautiful and ever so talented April Smith at April Smith Photography. She spent a couple hours one day teaching me how to step out of my "automatic" comfort zone.)
I like it overexposed. Sometimes we need to let ourselves get a little more exposed if you ask me. Sometimes I find myself telling everyone how well I am doing as to not expose anything deeper going on inside.
The truth is that today, I needed a little comfort. I needed to reach my hand up and find something to soothe me. I did and I did.
This Psalm has been singing truth to me this week,
A song of ascents.
1 Out of the depths I cry to you,Lord; 2 Lord, hear my voice. Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy.
3 If you, Lord, kept a record of sins, Lord, who could stand? 4 But with you there is forgiveness, so that we can, with reverence, serve you.
5 I wait for the Lord,my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope. 6 I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.
7 Israel, put your hopein the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. 8 He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins.
The truth is this: He doesn't keep a record of everything I have done wrong. He doesn't have it waiting to put on display for me or anyone else to see. He has forgiven me. I can walk in freedom. The truth sets me free. Because of that, all the glory goes to Him and I can serve Him...and oh, how I want to.
Waiting is part of the plan. It is always part of His plan. It's a very important part of the plan. We will always be longing for something this side of Heaven. A best friend reminded me today that to put my hope in the Lord I have to turn my eyes from my circumstances to His promises. I have been telling her this for weeks. It was my turn to do the listening. It's harder to be quiet and let the truth sink down deep sometimes.
And, I love that last part. I put my own name in it today. I read it like this,
Allison, put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with Him is full redemption. He himself will redeem you from all your sins.
I also put other people's names in there and made it a prayer.
That is something to sing about.